ANGRY Kerry Katona speaks out today for the first time about her six-year war with ex-hubby Brian McFadden.
In part two of her explosive News of the World interview she tells of her AGONY when he cheated on his stag night and her DEVASTATION when he dumped her for Aussie singer Delta Goodrem.
And she reveals that the man who slams her parenting skills stays in touch with their two daughters with about FIVE phone calls a year.
The couple wed in 2002 - but their marriage was doomed days before they tied the knot when boyband star Brian got carried away with a lapdancer.
Kerry said: "That killed it for me. I loved Brian and I trusted him. I remember thinking: 'But he's the fat one from Westlife. Why would he do this to me?'"
By then Brian and Kerry, 29, already had a daughter, Molly, now eight, and Kerry soon fell pregnant with Lilly-Sue, now seven.
Kerry recalled: "I thought we could work through it, but after Lilly was born, Brian told me he didn't love me. I didn't know it then but he'd met Delta."
In 2004 Brian, 30, left Kerry. She admitted: "I didn't fight. I saw the way he looked at Delta. He had never looked at me that way - I knew he had gone."
Kerry's worst fears were realised when she arranged for the children to see Brian who had just flown back to Heathrow - with Delta. She explained: "I remember thanking God I'd dressed up because this vision with a perfect figure, white shiny teeth, and a beautiful complexion was next to him. She was about a foot taller than me and I felt like a piece of rubbish.
"I was so nervous all I said was: 'Hiya Love, are you all right?' This to the woman who had taken my husband."
Brian now lives in Sydney with Delta, 25, and barely sees his daughters, says Kerry.
She sighed: "He phones the girls about five times a year - but Lilly doesn't really know who he is. I've never told them what really happened."
She went on: "Brian has a new life in Australia now. I'm not bitter. I'm just sad for him. He's missing out on two amazing little girls."
But Kerry claims that didn't stop Brian criticising her during her three-year marriage to Mark Croft, 39, who she is now divorcing. Kerry said: "Whenever I'm in trouble he lays into me.
"A couple of times his mum tried to go for legal custody, but never Brian."
By then Kerry's life was spiralling out of control - with her battling to cope with her bipolar disorder and going on three-day cocaine binges with Mark.
Brian has branded Kerry's behaviour "disgusting" and an "embarrassment", insisting he is a good dad.
But Kerry hit back saying: "Just because I did drugs didn't mean I was a bad mum in every sense. I always knew my children were safe. They would be with the nanny. I always kept the drugs away from my kids. I love my kids, I do their homework with them, bath them, pick them up from school. Brian isn't interested like that."
After years of battles, relations between the warring couple have improved in recent weeks and he has promised to help Kerry and the girls with the move to the south of England near her new management team.
She has ditched drugs along with sponger Mark, who blew £1.4million on flash cars and jewellery and also cheated on her with a lapdancer.
And Kerry has shed 3st, saying exercise rather than medication has helped her bipolar condition. "I have my life back. If I'd stayed where I was I don't think I'd have seen more than 30," she said candidly. She is now planning to transform her image after she was sacked from her Iceland ads and made bankrupt.
Kerry admits she has no idea where her £5million fortune went. "I've worked my backside off since I was 14 and I've made millions with nothing to show for it.
"My problem is I do anything to make people love me. When Mark came along he dealt with everything. I had no idea what money was going out or coming in."
She also blames much of her confusion about her finances on being over-medicated for her bipolar disorder. "When I stopped taking it, it was like coming out of a coma. I'd woken up but the money was gone."
Now, with the dark days behind her, single Kerry is determined to start again and do right by her four children - including her three-year-old daughter Heidi and son Max, two, with Mark.
Defiantly, she added: "I've got so much to be ashamed of but I'm going to prove I'm worth another chance. I won't let my children down again."
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